Chapter 02: Writing your suicide note.

The point is no matter how much you try to behave in the way society has molded you, life will continue to show you ups and downs. We, humans, try hard to act maturely & feel childish at the same time and the irony is we only have designed such lines. The lines which let us behave in a particular way when we are in front of a crowd. I define “The crowd” as the part of society which will be there no matter what to guide you, to console you but most of the time to judge you. Do you remember those “Char log” which were merely introduced to you ever but were used in every family conversation which was meant to make you learn how to behave? Remember those phrase used by our parents “Char logo ko paata chalega to Kaisa lagega?”

                                                      Now, when I look back at those “chaar log” or “Sharma Ji” or “Kapoor Shahab” concept they have more influence on me than my family. Every kid’s family has one such surname fixed to make their kids learn something from them probably for some of us cousins play that evil role. They are the most perfect human beings ever lived on the face of the earth. As a kid, we all use to hate them but as a Good son or daughter, we also tried hard to meet expectations of our parents. Actually, those are the people who made us capable what we are today. But most of all I salute them for giving me that patience, that peace, which I could never attain as a kid. I will tell you how.

If we like something we want it. We do not wait for thinking that should I have it or not? At least the kid in you do not do so. He fights for things he needed up to his full capabilities But, as we grow up we don’t fight anymore. What changed, ever taught?

The best advantage of growing up is by now you have learned enough words to explain everything that is happening with you. You can literally explain your every behavior, For example, you pull a chair for someone and that’s called a “Gentleman”, but who taught you to do so? Thus, another word explains this behavior named “etiquettes” and above all its maturity.

Pulling a chair is a good thing but the worst part is grownups can provide excuses for literally everything. Now, coming back to the point’, where is that fighting spirit? Funny, we have a word for that also “Laziness”.

              Who will go and fight for small things? Just let it go I will get another one. I am not a kid anymore.

I am not provoking you to get into a fight for everything. I am trying to convince that if we are gonna let go everything just because Come ‘on you are 21, are you supposed to do so? Then, believe it we are killing some part of us every day. The regret of killing the child in you. That guilt of writing your own suicide note . . . .