Just Because It Is Not You.

I had started feeling suffocated there. That same pale wall was looking so dull, so uninteresting. The lights were as bright as from the time of inception date but, the difference is the brightness now, couldn’t show me the path in darkness. I needed to leave that Place as much as an employee wants to log out from his office at 6:00 PM.  I wanted to change my flat not because I had started getting negative vibes there but, because there was nothing left for me anymore. There was nothing for me in her heart now, so I choose to take my good memories and luggage and leave the place for a better good. I am a bachelor, which means that I do not belong here. When your conversations gets limited and that laughter supporting your humour fades away… Then the Land lady says,”Wo sab to thik hai beta! Par, Ab humne ye Ghar family walo ko dene ka faisla kiya hai”. I do not deserve a place in your house because I am not settled yet…? Sounds convincing from Land Lady’s point of vi...

Good Morning! His roommate wished him. In reply, he asked what's the time? . After checking on to his phone he answered 02:34 PM.     That wasn't a new thing for him. He usually spends the entire night watching The Flash, Working hard to update his Instagram's page to increase followers or just watching some random youtube videos. Was this one another night when you slept at 05 or 06 in the morning? His roommate asked. Yaa... Duuh! He could never analyze what was that life event which made him an Insomniac. Well, anyway it doesn't matter now anyways but, he surely loved the dusk.                                          For him, Nights were that point of time when he could separate himself from others. The time when he could take out time, thinking about his career, family, friends, life. Unaware of the fact that he turning into an "Overthinker". Al...

You know I have tasted happiness. Sounds weird I know but trust me it was more delightful than an 8pcs chicken bucket at K.F.C. or Choco Lava cake at Dominos.                      It's the most satisfying feeling ever, Really! Have you ever felt like a tickle from inside? Did you ever dance out of joy like a kid without hesitating where you are and your steps?                      Did you start grinding your teeth unless you didn't find a right person to express how you feel? Probably that's called happiness. Oh no, wait that is "Happiness". Okay, as by now I have got your attention. Do you believe that you can actually taste happiness and burp? See, now we are on the same page. Seeing the smile on your parents face because of you, haven't you had the same feeling? ...

There was a fire, no smoke but only the fire. No one else could see it but it was always there. All his life he couldn't figure out what fueled the flame but surely it did grill a piece of meat into the roasted chicken which was ready to get served on any plate. He surely wanted to measure how high he bounces back but first, he had to strike the ground. He wanted to prove something. Something that was an imaginary concept even for him. All he wanted was to mark his existence. He needed to prove himself. He questioned himself & learn ed about a new "serious side" beneath his body. He explored the meaning of "Love" and realized the feeling of "letting it go". His brain became dis-functional at times. He struggled between the rightful wrong and unfair just . He couldn't think of anything. His face looked like the child with sparkling eyes staring at stars on a beautiful night wondering about the path to reach there. He could ...

Feeling, from where it all starts right? Good feeling, Bad feelings, Positive feelings, Negative feelings. These feelings make us human, but you know what is the worst feeling of all? It's not losing something you love. It's not getting hurt. It's not failing. The worst of the feeling of all is when you hide from yourself when your heart is stuffed like a Momo with the excess of garnished onions instead of chicken chunks. You have a lot to share, to express, at times you wanna cry out loud on someone's shoulder but you didn't get one. At times you want to speak out everything which is congesting your heart. Just like water washes out the dirt from the floor, Tears roll out of eyes sometimes carrying all dirt of heart. Sometimes Kitna Kuch Hota hai kehne ko, par koi sunne wala Nahi Hota. Keeping things piled up inside you can actually make you feel a bit heavy as if some weight has been kept on your chest. It's not like you have no friends usually people...

The point is no matter how much you try to behave in the way society has molded you, life will continue to show you ups and downs. We, humans, try hard to act maturely & feel childish at the same time and the irony is we only have designed such lines. The lines which let us behave in a particular way when we are in front of a crowd. I define “The crowd” as the part of society which will be there no matter what to guide you, to console you but most of the time to judge you. Do you remember those “Char log” which were merely introduced to you ever but were used in every family conversation which was meant to make you learn how to behave? Remember those phrase used by our parents “Char logo ko paata chalega to Kaisa lagega?”                                                       Now, when I look back at those “chaar log” or “Sharma Ji” or “K...

Being alone can drive you crazy seriously. No, don’t believe me it’s science. See loneliness is directly proportional to the quality & quantity you talk. I used to be the one who was the most talkative among the friends & family. People once used to laugh at my one-liners. Yes! Once upon a time. But, everything going perfectly is not acceptable neither to society, to friends or even to God. You fall for someone so deep that you can actually feel the changes in you. You become something new, something different. We usually call it the better version of our self. You start to blossom in the wind, enjoy the rain. The optimist in you is at its peak. Then, again on the graph of destiny and life, you fall. You fall so hard that you cannot ever become you again. The state of you that ask questions usually starts with why? There is the birth of a whole new you. You can survive a breakup. You can forget “the one” eventually whom you thought to make your soul mate. Bu...