Chapter 08: Honestly Lost Souls

A millennium passes away & Once you find someone who is your exact copy. They may be around you from a long long time but, never exchanged the thoughts.

          She is a blessing in disguise. For years we have been together as a support, as a friend in all the ups and downs. She is my partner in crimes, my laughing Buddha, my unconscious state and energy source and my buddy.
     As they say when the time is right, It's right. It takes a very precious and deep moment to knot the two hearts... To have that feeling that unknowingly we both have sailed the same boat. That inch of time lock when our eyes said everything... trying to read each others, understanding that depth and making that promise that I will be with you forever as I was with you, no matter what.
I will be that person who is in your life to take away all your griefs, sorrows & a promise to self that won't let her feel devastated ever again.

The universe knows it's way of connecting two souls, It will create all of sudden a spontaneous plan of friends, a mild weather & a clock which has ability to pause time for those meant to be togethers. 

She is a writer too. This time She is writing my story., She quotes the beginning as:

"When you find a soul which is just the extension of your own soul or reminder like the blast from the Past. It brings you closer to your own soul & your own answers & makes you more determined against the four letter words 'lost'.

    Mistakes makes you think, that you are lost but the 'extension of your soul' makes you to revise the journey, with road map for the exact location to find your Place of Peace

what ever may be the extremes but, the trust reflected through the mirror of  his eyes, makes you believe on your truth & your trust becomes more stronger.

I don't know what connection we have...

its a love but not love like love,

Its a care but a motherly care,

its a emotion which you both shares,

the tear which actually felt by both,

its a "kandha" which helps you to deliver your frustration its a hug which is beyond any limit or to conclude it in few words, its just a set of undescribed words which are felt through the hug, the bond, the love, the reminance of the last moments of the togetherness."

That was the day she busted a spark in me... It may be the weather carrying air or may be her face expressing I am being that mad for you as much as you are being for me. I replayed that day a thousand times in my head and every time became happy that she unfolded a new chapter. She is my best friend because she could she my tears even when I was holding it back, and not crying.

She deserved to be the person who carried my past and moulded my future. She is beautiful.
She continues...

"The sentence 'I started missing you now' bring so much of butterflies in her stomach & a flash of instant smile which comes directly from the heart & also a pinch of blush rush through the cheeks, which makes realise that she was also missing him.

She didn't say to him, nor he expect from her to say but both in their heart knows this thing, that there is a spark, definitely a charm. There is a constant fight between mind and the heart, knowing the outcomes & also knowing the fact, the heart wants to race with those feelings.

                       He might denies & she is also quite but together they know because they both don't go on words they both went on paths of souls. He expressed & she is glad to hear that & start imaging his face & his actions. He started taking care of her in a different way & she also started including him in her thoughts.

Some things are unsaid between them. They are close yet they are apart. They both are attached with the souls yet there are some strings apart. But, they don't know what destiny has written for them"

What's the most amazing feeling?

When someone feels and understand you in the same way as you do..

She included me in her thoughts and that's when I started missing her whenever she thinks of me.

       You know not much have changed. There had been a few secretaries but, the heart stills wants to race with those feelings and with a constant fear of loosing her ... We all have that twists and turns in our lives, with time we start playing our part of life but, whenever I pause for a moment I find that my soul is just besides me.

        You know compatibility is not just about understanding her and comforting her.., It is stepping down and coming back to same page and taking each other forward along.

Being in love is like falling into a blissful sleep.

It happens slowly, then very suddenly you find yourself asleep.

You then find yourself never wanting to wake up again.

Falling for you was just like that.

I still don't want to wake up.

I hope with all my heart that this is reality.

I hope you are not a dream, but the girl of my dreams in real life.

I hope that you do not fade away, but that you stay with me forever.

To sum up she choses heartfelt words again:

"There has been many nights through which the stars turns it colours, The moon changes its shades & stars seems more brighter. The souls which were lost, stare to unnamed destination. Where there is no way to go, but tries to find destination & with the journey found another soul to rest upon, to rely upon...

   'Together we can do so much & alone so little'. He whispers in her ears, to show the bond, which was still a difficult journey, lots of thrones and bushes comes around, but by sticking together, they found the way.

During the journey ... building ourselves, building each other, passing ocean & going with the flow. But, deep in her heart, she knows the destination will part away the path one day or some day.

It was hard time for them... they are together but feeling so apart. There is a spark but with no fire. He again showed some courage & put a smile on her face just by saying that 'He is the way he was, He is & He will be like that forever.' There are giggles & there are laughs but deep down in their hearts both carries a painful part. Both are still on eachother's priorities, but also share mutual fear.

No one has to say but, both have to pass this way.

But, I am telling you this is not a story to cry upon, Buckle up your shoes & let's do it together, they both promised & motivate each other. Always try to look upon the brighter side & again promising the forever nights.

They have strings which are attached which pushes them even more Togetherness. They know the words which pulls them forever."

With the heart congested like overstuffed Momos with excess of garnished Onions, instead of chicken chunks, Jaan look up we started some thing more beautiful than this dead poet society.

So, Chin up, Smile and conquer the world, Because if, this time, love leaves an empty envelope at my doorstep I am going to fold it into a paper plane and fly it back to you.