Chapter 03: We need to talk.
Feeling, from where it all starts right? Good feeling, Bad feelings, Positive feelings, Negative feelings. These feelings make us human, but you know what is the worst feeling of all? It's not losing something you love. It's not getting hurt. It's not failing.
The worst of the feeling of all is when you hide from yourself when your heart is stuffed like a Momo with the excess of garnished onions instead of chicken chunks.
You have a lot to share, to express, at times you wanna cry out loud on someone's shoulder but you didn't get one. At times you want to speak out everything which is congesting your heart. Just like water washes out the dirt from the floor, Tears roll out of eyes sometimes carrying all dirt of heart.
Sometimes Kitna Kuch Hota hai kehne ko, par koi sunne wala Nahi Hota. Keeping things piled up inside you can actually make you feel a bit heavy as if some weight has been kept on your chest.
It's not like you have no friends usually people of this category including me have a larger number of heads to say Hola! in the crowd. When you know how it feels you won't want anyone else to feel the same way. So, you talk to everyone. Exchange greetings, ask their where about etc. OR It's just another search for someone to listen to the loneliness in you. It's you who is doing the talking but expects the person in front to listen to the unsaid version of you. Your expectation gets demolished and thus the search continues...
In-spite of being friendly socially haven't you felt alone while some of nights?
Nights brings out dawn, everything gets settled down, Slowly more & more lights get turned off, a cold breeze near the window, that silence in which you can even listen to your breath and those slideshows in front of your eyes. I always overthink on such nights, when I am alone.
The only thing that hurts the most is when you have a lot to talk about but no one to listen & the results could be dangerous beyond your imaginations when you let your heart & soul speaks on one of such nights.
Our brain is considered as the "Logical Unit". We can apply our experiences, knowledge, wisdom, & talents to get the best of the best but, when you let your heart & soul do the talking work, Your C.P.U. crashes out.
Then & there the sound of your heart, the rhythm of the soul becomes so powerful that the feared voice of logic fails to reach up to ears.
There is a fight inside you. On the land of "Panipat", your opinions attack your instincts. The battle beneath your body Where no matter who wins but your own bloodsheds, and its not over yet. The conclusion comes with a final explosion when again there is a "Sunrise". Who won doesn't matter then. There is a mess from the war but with a perfect silence.
The same silence you feel after minutes of fighting with your brother or sister and a sudden peace make you realize that there nothing more left to fight about. The fire is still inside you but the silence after the storm has stopped letting you feel the warmth of that flame.
A fight where conclusion doesn't matter but arena becomes victorious.
"Ek pehlwani ka khel jaha kon jita wo maaiene nahi rahkta, par aakhada eitihashik ho jata hai."
The worst of the feeling of all is when you hide from yourself when your heart is stuffed like a Momo with the excess of garnished onions instead of chicken chunks.
You have a lot to share, to express, at times you wanna cry out loud on someone's shoulder but you didn't get one. At times you want to speak out everything which is congesting your heart. Just like water washes out the dirt from the floor, Tears roll out of eyes sometimes carrying all dirt of heart.
Sometimes Kitna Kuch Hota hai kehne ko, par koi sunne wala Nahi Hota. Keeping things piled up inside you can actually make you feel a bit heavy as if some weight has been kept on your chest.
It's not like you have no friends usually people of this category including me have a larger number of heads to say Hola! in the crowd. When you know how it feels you won't want anyone else to feel the same way. So, you talk to everyone. Exchange greetings, ask their where about etc. OR It's just another search for someone to listen to the loneliness in you. It's you who is doing the talking but expects the person in front to listen to the unsaid version of you. Your expectation gets demolished and thus the search continues...
In-spite of being friendly socially haven't you felt alone while some of nights?
Nights brings out dawn, everything gets settled down, Slowly more & more lights get turned off, a cold breeze near the window, that silence in which you can even listen to your breath and those slideshows in front of your eyes. I always overthink on such nights, when I am alone.
The only thing that hurts the most is when you have a lot to talk about but no one to listen & the results could be dangerous beyond your imaginations when you let your heart & soul speaks on one of such nights.
Our brain is considered as the "Logical Unit". We can apply our experiences, knowledge, wisdom, & talents to get the best of the best but, when you let your heart & soul do the talking work, Your C.P.U. crashes out.
Then & there the sound of your heart, the rhythm of the soul becomes so powerful that the feared voice of logic fails to reach up to ears.
There is a fight inside you. On the land of "Panipat", your opinions attack your instincts. The battle beneath your body Where no matter who wins but your own bloodsheds, and its not over yet. The conclusion comes with a final explosion when again there is a "Sunrise". Who won doesn't matter then. There is a mess from the war but with a perfect silence.
The same silence you feel after minutes of fighting with your brother or sister and a sudden peace make you realize that there nothing more left to fight about. The fire is still inside you but the silence after the storm has stopped letting you feel the warmth of that flame.
A fight where conclusion doesn't matter but arena becomes victorious.
"Ek pehlwani ka khel jaha kon jita wo maaiene nahi rahkta, par aakhada eitihashik ho jata hai."
Comments
however the logic is not coming right and i am not able to connect myself to the write-up. Pick up some good writers and try and align your thoughts..though it will be tedious task but if you practice....you will get better each time...
Rohit Lal